confusionislove

04:51 pm: I LIED!!
okay maybe i lied this isnt my last one....ut im tickled to death...i passed all my classes...i made an A,B, and a D...yea but the D may have been bad but its better than an F in which i thought i was goin to get.....the sad part is it was english and english is my subject..but i had a very hard teacher....but eneway i passed and got credit for it...im so happy....i jut had to let everyone know...

01:49 am: last one!!!
ok so ima give the DL real fast...im home...things are alot better now...i have talked it over with alot of ppl and there is really only one person on my shit list right now but she has moved back to the beach...so im happy...but i think this is goin to be my last entry bc i really just never have time to keep it up to date...im kinda happy that i had one bc it allowed me to get across to some ppl...express how i felt about some things..and tie loose ends with ppl...so it was fun and be easy!!!

Sincerely yours.....Ashley Elaine Askew!!!

02:30 pm: peace im out!!!
it might be awhile before i come bakc to my livejournal...i am moving out of my house bc of all of this drama that two very wonderful people started....its crazy how things can get turned around in the is no good town...but ima say one last thing...THINK WHAT YOU WANT TO THINK ABOUT ME I DONT GIVE A FUCK...i know the truth and thats all that matters....i told ryan last night that i was goin to get a sticker put on my car that says...."all of the tri-county area can kiss my ass"!! now thats whats up...but neway ill be back sometimes.....keep it easy....

PEACE IM OUT!!

p.s hillary thanks for the text beat a niggas ass if you got tooo....that was funny!!

02:15 am: my world was killed tonight!!!!
because of a very stupid ignorant person who gets a kick out of messing with peoples heads anf hearts tonight i lost too very good friends....although he thought he knew what he was talking about he had not the slightest idea....now i hope he is very happy with all the drama he has caused tonight...but on th up side i talked to someone tonight that i prolly should have talked to before then i woulndt be in the situation tonight...it meant alot to me that she actually talked to me...i found out alot of things that wish i knew a long time ago....hillary thank you for telling me the truth...and he really doesnt deserve either one our times if he is going to act that childish and get a thrill out fo messing up someone elses life...as foryou dont ever talk to me again or even look my way...and when we work together just act civil...but outside of work act like i dont exsist..it would be greatly appreciated!!!!!!

12:35 am: Someone answer this for me?
If two people are exactly alike do think that it is possible to have a healthy relationship?

03:43 pm: Just a few things off my chest!!
ive been thinkin alot latley about a bunch of different things...there is this one thing that sticks out in my mind....why is it when someone tells another person something they really only tell the part to make them look good and the other person look bad...what kind of feeling do people get from that...if something is your fault admit to it....people will respect you a lot more...dont always try to look good....everyone screws up but you cant always be an angel so why try...
also....why do people care so much what other people think of them...for a long time i worried about people liking me and whether or not i was goin to step on someones toes..but you think about it... all your years growing up people tell you half of the people that you have been friends all your life and the friends you make in high school, they arent going to be your friends when its all said and done..when you walk acoss the stage and spend your last summer with everyone you grew up with, its all over after that....i cant count on one hand people that have actually stayed my friends since i graduated...i have friends now that i never thought i would ever be friends with bc they werent "cool" enough and you knwo they are better friends to me than alot of people...i want to thank katie and dianna for still being my friends..even after we all graduated...
...another thing...i woke up one morning last week and decided that it was time that i started making my own decisions..im tired of living my life based on how people want me too...im tired of dating people bc thats who soemone wants me with....im tired of not paying attention to someone who means alot to me just bc they have a bad rep...screw all that bullshit...im almost 20 years old and my mom told me that when i hit the big 2-0 that i was honestly declared as a woman..and its time that i started to act like it its my life and not everyone else...
....my name is ashley askew...welcome to my NEW WORLD...this is my life!!!

03:37 pm: interesting

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Ashley Askew
Birthday:	July 18th baby!!!
Birthplace:	Ahoskie
Current Location:	Ahoskie
Eye Color:	thats a good qestion...greenish brown
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5'6
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	german, irish, small amount of indian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	katies black slip ons
Your Weakness:	i care what SOME people say
Your Fears:	snakes, spiders, 18 wheelers and being closed in a box
Your Perfect Pizza:	vegetable
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get my shit together
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	ok
Thoughts First Waking Up:	ummm...i dont know
Your Best Physical Feature:	i like my clavicle...;)...and on a good day my hair
Your Bedtime:	3:00 am
Your Most Missed Memory:	the way things use to be....MY GRANDADDY!
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	burger kings chic snadwiches and fries...mcdonalds chezburgers
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	neither
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	yes!!
Do you Swear:	yes!!
Do you Sing:	yes..but i cant
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes!!!!
Do you want to go to College:	im in college
Do you want to get Married:	smetime
Do you belive in yourself:	somewhat
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	im just ashley...nuthin special
Are you a Health Freak:	hell no
Do you get along with your Parents:	i get along with my mommy!!
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes absolulty love them
Do you play an Instrument:	no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yep...
In the past month have you Smoked:	yep...
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yep...
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yep...
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	nope...
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	ooooo god no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	f*** no...never will
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes...friday night
In the past month have you been Dumped:	HAHAH...YEA
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no...
Ever been Drunk:	YES!!!
Ever been called a Tease:	YES!!
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	yes
How do you want to Die:	peacefully
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a millionaire..never gonna happen
What country would you most like to Visit:	australia
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	blue
Favourite Hair Color:	doesnt matter...i like blonde
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	all depends
Best Clothing Style:	comfortable
Number of Drugs I have taken:	hmmm....thats nosey question
Number of CDs I own:	?????????????
Number of Piercings:	2
Number of Tattoos:	0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	i have no regrets
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Current Mood: awake

Current Music: julie roberts

11:04 am: H-E-L-LO
i am just droppin in to say hey...........

11:01 pm: Great Song!!!
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

howie day~collide

11:24 pm: things seem to be looking up
Everything that seems to go wrong has gone wrong ever since last thursday...but its ok now...the Alero should be up and on the road in about two weeks maybe not even that long...chris is doing soooo much better...YOUR TOUGH KID...just chill with the sneezing episodes...i start riverside sunday but still working at charlie west every now and then....things seem to be doin much better....

on another note...

its been hard for you since friday...and i have been there ever since...alot of things have hit me since all this has happened...a lot of things that i cant explain all i know is that i am scared for somehting like this to happen again...i never want to see you that way ever in my life....so stop worrying about whether or not im happy...im VERY happy..the HAPPIEST i have ever been...i still get butterflies in my stomach ever time i see you...i love spending time with you i would rather do that than anything else...you r the best...the best anyone could ever ask for...keep that in mind and dont ever forget it...xoxoxo all the way across the board....luv u!!!

12:53 pm: MY OPINIONS HAVE CHANGED
OKAY SO TODAY IS VALENTINES DAY AND I HATE IT! I HAVE NEVER LIKED VALENTINES DAY...WHY SHOULD YOU TAKE ONE DAY OUT OF THE YEAR TO SHOW SOMEONE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM...ITS SEVERELY PLAYED OUT!! FOR SOME REASON THOUGH I LIKE VDAY THIS YEAR...I HAVE SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY SHOWS ME HOW MUCH THEY CARE FOR ME ALL THE TIME AND TODAY IS JUST A DAY FOR HIM TO TREAT ME BETTER THAN HE EVER HAS...YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY ALL THE TIME AND YOU ACTUALLY MAKE ME LOOK FORWARD TO TODAY AND EVERY OTHER DAY THAT WE SPEND TOGETHER...SO CHRIS I JUST WANT TO THINK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND BEING THE BEST FRIEND I COULD ASK FOR AND SO MUCH MORE...I CAN ONLY THINK OF ONE THING THAT COULD MAKE THIS DAY SUCK BUT WE WONT GET INTO THAT I JUST KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TODAY YOU WILL MAKE IT ALL BETTER....XOXOXOXOXOXO

11:14 am: this time its for you...JCS!!!
there is absolutley nuthin about you that i dont like...even when i pick on you about your nails and shit in all actuality i love them and everything else that i pick on you about....i have never had anyone that just kept me goin and made me laugh all the time...you can never tell from one mintue to the next what is goin to happen...although i tell you not to look at me with them big beety blue eyes i love it when you look at me... i get this feeling when im with you that i have never felt b4 and i cant explain how it feels...i have always told you that there was something about you that i loved and i cant exactly figure out what it was...i think that its just the way you are...i have always chose sleep over everything bc i have always thought that it was the best thing in the whole wide world but i would much rather stay up all night with you than have one sec of sleep (if thats possible)....always remember you r

"CHRIS mothafuckin Smith" and i love everything about you and ever second i spend with you!! MUAH!!!

you dont make me wanna smoke crack anymore..haha

05:44 am: "the time of your life"
i think that last night had to be by far the best night of my life....although i stayed up until 6:00 this morning and had to get up and 9:30 so i could go to work....i completely canceled my plans to hang out with my friends just so i could spend 3 hours with you that turned into all night...i hung in gates county with all of JCS's friends and it was great....i honestly dont think i have ever laughed as much as i did...not only that it was great spending that time with you...just me and you talking about everything like always...i wouldnt change my life right now for anything..you are great and i hope things stay this way....

lets lick the charlie west's shirt ;)

"i like you just the way you are!"

06:26 am: "a wise girl kisses but never falls in love, listens but never believes, and leaves before she is left"

Now how many girls are actually like that...if it was that easy where would all the fun come from, the tears, the lessons, and broken hearts? Its a good thing to be strong but sometimes we need to let out guard down and live a little....i cant count on my fingers and toes the amount of times i have been hurt or cried but i keep on because i learn from all of it...i know that one day someone will walk into my life that would never make me feel anything other than #1....soooo....

"you have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, remember what you had always forgive but never forget, people change, things go wrong just remember LIFE GOES ON!"

02:34 am: a million and one questions
"An angels smile is what you see, you promise me heavan then put me through hell, chains of love gotta hold on me when passions a prison, you cant break free"

Why cant you change the past or predict the future...when times are hard and confusing woulndt it be so nice to know what will happen so you wouldnt have to worry about stupid things? If I could change the past i would have never fallen in love so you couldnt break my heart and if i could see into the future i would probably avoid it....i know the dumb decisions i have made and the ones that i keep on making...as long as i allow myself those decisions will never fail but to exsist...now its time for someone other than you to sweep me up and let me down...thats how it always goes isnt it?